Me and my boyfriend has been together for 3 years, we both know our quirks and personalities and our needs. At the start of our relationship we were pretty active in those terms and weve slowly lessened it. He gets lazy alot to do it whenever I want to and I think its really unfair that we only get to do it when he wants to. The worst part is that he never really gives any effort into my pleasure too much. To be more specific weve been doing it almost always raw and it has NEVER EVER landed into any type of pregnancy scares which was cool because we both didnt really like condoms.
But suddenly he had a dream of sorts and started changing. He asked me if we can lessen doing it and at first I was upset about it. Im hypersexual for many unfortunate reasons and he knows it. But I agreed since I cant do anything about it and after awhile I was honestly happy because it healed me a bit but that doesnt remove my wants and he knew my situation already. And it still irks me that we only get to do it whenever he wants to and its lazy.
If you say that I should break up with him and try with someone else– I already have tried to but ended up getting trauma from it cause I realized I can’t do it unless its him. It made me nauseous and disgusted of myself.
Now he wants to not do it AT ALL. And that really pissed me off, i know its petty but he should know that its unfair that I always have to adjust to his wants and doesnt give me a positive spin on it. But he still continues to fap which confuses me even more?? And if you say its cuz im bad at bed or he is, were not we satisfy eachother and it feels great weve communicated about it. Thats why im MORE confused, and now Im the one who looks like the asshole for not wanting to compromise even more.
Hes honestly the perfect dude for me and im scared that ill never find anyone who gets me and treats me good thats why I agree to his wants, but what about my wants? Im so tired of having to adjust to his when he cant even fullfill my needs and it hurts me and i dont want this to be the reason it ends.
