I went to the doctor for an abortion because my BD kept giving his FIRST baby mama and kids more attention than me.

I went to the doctor for an abortion because my BD kept giving his FIRST baby mama and kids more attention than me.

And I’m sorry… if you’re with ME, your eyes, your time, your energy need to be on ME. Period. He started acting weird, distant, moving funny, and I’m not bringing a child into that mess. So I made my appointment. He mad, harassing me but thats another story.

They gave me the pills, but I didn’t take them right away because we had a graduation cookout at my house my 5-bedroom home, YES, that I OWN at 21. Anyway Everything was normal. My siblings was there and one of my oldest brothers lets call him T 31, we were talking, and he mentions his girlfriend is pregnant and how he “doesn’t really want the baby.” Then he says that whole “men should have a say” bs. I cut him off IMMEDIATELY. I said, “A man has ZERO say over what a woman does with her body. If she wants that baby, she’s keeping it.” Like tf. Yall do not own us!

He didn’t like that answer. We didn’t argue, but the vibe shifted.

Cookout ends, I clean up, shower, and I decide I’m finally going to take my pills. I go to my cabinet where I KNOW I put them… and they’re GONE. I tore my bathroom up looking. I knew something was off, but I tried not to overthink it. Ended up having to call the doctor the next morning, explain I lost them, and they gave me another set.

Then four days later… my brother’s girlfriend calls me SEVENTEEN TIMES. Back to back. I answer, and she’s whispering, panicking, asking me, “What are the signs of a miscarriage?” I told her spotting and bleeding. She goes quiet. I go quiet. Because HOW is she spotting when she was perfectly fine days ago? Im thinking my brother a woman b3@ter.

But the second I hung up, my mind went straight back to my missing pills and that “men should have a choice” conversation. Because who else even knew what those pills were? Who else had access to my bathroom? And why did my brother suddenly sound so… relieved when I checked on him later? Like tf

A few weeks go by and she ends up losing the baby. And I can’t PROVE anything… but deep in my spirit? I know my brother took my pills. I know he made his choice for her body because he didn’t like her choice for herself. And the way he answered the phone all cheerful like nothing ever happened? That told me everything I needed to know. I just don’t know how to bring it up without blowing my whole family up… but I swear I know what he did. I really want to tell my daddy…